Summer Time

ITS FINALLY HERE! SUMMER!
Now its time for work and hanging out with friends and reading all those books i never had time to read before :) I ordered my drivers license online and my mom said that she got something in the mail from the dmv so hopefully that is it! im so excited!!!! i was worried about not being able to get into bars and stuff when i didn't have it but hopefully this is it!

Omg i love Michelle Phan! she is so pretty and creative when it comes to makeup! http://www.youtube.com/user/MichellePhan
she's the best go check her out!

I have work soon so i have to get ready but one more piece of news... we got the new house!!!!!!!!!! :D sooo excited! can't wait to move in! :)

here are some pretty pics for today:

Kill Bill!

Me and my housemate just finished watching Kill Bill 2! it was really funny to get to see the old time-y style that it was made in. at first i thought it was hella funny but once you watched it and got into it, it made way more sense :)
So spring break has begun and now i get to take a break from doing so much intense research paper writing!!!! im so happy! :D

here's a pretty pic for yall :)

OMG

NO ONE READS THIS lol
but anyways its st. paties day and we are about to play a drinking game to planet earth!!! every time there is an impressive pan-motion shot, either eagle eye shot or intense zoom in or out. and any shots of animals gettin it on! and then any shots with baby animals! lol Planet earth is really beautiful and complex! its so funny to watch :)

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!


<3

~J

hmmm

DANCING!

I will be taking ballet 1 next quarter and couldn't be more excited :3

This photo is special to me because it reminds me of a shot that i took in black and white for my sophomore year photo class :) It was of this beautiful beach that me and my dad and my brother always go to :) that place is like a sacred haven for me, and i will always have a special connection to it. Just thought i would share this memory with the people of the internet, even if no one reads this, it is still a place and a memory that is very near and dear to my heart :)

<3
~J

Wanted?/Shifting.

Did you feel that? the shift. the change. the glimmer of doubt.
Was that what it was? or is this all just paranoia.
Now i don't know
I don't know how i feel about this,
this shift in power,
tipping the scale,
the change of hands,
exchange of glances,
will you look away?
I can feel it.
the shifting.


Now i wonder
with new information at hand
in the light
from the dark
what does this mean
who are you now?
what do you want?
do you want this?
its because it shifted right.
I know.
i did it.
i put the shift in-motion.
it was me.
but it was out of respect.
for you and her.
and what you had.
I know its early.
I know you still hurt.
or do I,
do you talk?
do you express
all that you need to?
do you want my help?
i'll be here for you.
at first i wasn't sure,
if that would be a good idea...
but now i know
that i can do that
without getting hurt
but now i wonder
do you even want it?

Well we shall see
i suppose.

fuck that shit

so this is a pic that my friend found a minute ago and i thought it was very relevant to my current situation. or just my thoughts on men in general :)

i have a situation right now that is rather complicated unfortunately, and it makes me frustrated, and sad, but also happy, i don't really have a definite feeling about it...

i like him.
i like who he is.
but he is damaged.
and there is nothing i can do about it.
this needs to be fixed on his own time.
no matter how much i want to help him
in any way i can.
i can't.
he has to do it himself.
so what to do.
just stay friends.
let him lean on me.
but only as friends.
even though i want to fix him
i can't.
even though i want to know him better.
it's dangerous.
fuck this.



I guess for now it's just me, myself, and my old shoes.